Mother's Day

Well, today is Mother's Day, so Happy Mother's Day to any mom that reads this. Church was wonderful this morning and it had me in tears again. Two Sundays in a row of tears is a rare thing for me. Went to lunch with my mom, dad, sister and her family and brother and his family. We ate at Texas Roadhouse and it was really yummy. Despite the seating mix-up, I think everyone had a really good lunch. I came home, did the laundry and just relxed and watched some movies. Actually all I did yesterday was watch movie and relax.

Anyways, on to the disappointments of the life I didn't plan. I just pulled myself together from an "out of the blue" melt down. I was looking at mother's day pictures that all of my friends have posted of them with thier husbands and kiddos and I lost it. Don't get me wrong, I am so happy for all of them, but being a wife and a mom is really all I have ever wanted and it hurts so badly to not have that. Most of the time I am completely fine and it doesn't bother me so much, but today it just hit extremely hard. Our Pastor talked about how different things are today. How girls use to desire to be a mom and how now to some it seems to be a burden or they are too busy to have kids. The whole time all I could think is here I sit, full of desire to be a mom and a wife and yet I am as single as they come.

I do know God is working in me continuously to mold me into the Godly woman he created me to be and if this is where he wants/needs me to be to do that, then this is where I will be. I will stay joyous and not let satan steal my joy because my life has yet to turn out how I thought it would.

On a lighter note, tomorrow is Monday and I have a different outlook on how to handle all my old and new duties at work without getting overwhelmed. In Sunday School we are reading through the bible. Right now we are in Nehamiah and what I have noticed as I read is that Ezra and Nehamiah are in constant prayer/communication with God. Therefore, I am going to listen to God's word and make my best attempt to stay in constant prayer/communication with God. I am going to do my best to pray when I start getting frustrated, stressed, overwhelmed, tired and ask for God's help. I KNOW that with God's help I can do this job and do it well. Please say some prayers for me as I face these challenges tomorrow.

God Bless,
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