Changing

Today was a good day. I started settling in to my new "office" at work. My co-worker retired and her last day was Wednesday, May 5. My boss decided it would work best if I moved back to her old office area. The church is not going to hire anyone, so I will be doing it all. It was a little overwhelming when I found out and I am still a bit overwhelmed, but it will all work out.

Today I got the phone bill for the church in the mail. When I opened the bill I noticed it was a bit higher than usual. I started looking at the detail and there was a charge for something that I did not authorize. In this situation I generally get mad and raise heck with the company. However, I chose to be positive and keep my cool. I found out it was a third party charge. AT&T put a claim on it and a block so that no more third party companies can put charges through our phone bill. Turns out it was from a company that had called twice with all kinds of bogus stuff. They wanted to send a packet of information and a 14 day trial for a new website. I told them we didn't need it because we had a website. Well I thought that was the end of it, not so much. I finally got it all straightened out while staying positive and keeping my cool. I thought that was pretty great progress for me. Through out both conversations I kept focusing on God and staying positive and I am amazed at how well it worked for me. I pray that people begin to start seeing Jesus through me in my actions and words. I also noticed that I wasn't anxious over anything today. I felt relaxed, calm and at peace!!!

Today was also the day I went for blood work and chest x-ray for my annual checkup. It was the usual 4 vials of blood and 2 pics of my chest and out the door I went. If the results are good then I will have been in remission for 16 years. Since my first check-up, after going into remission, I have always been crabby and plain horrible for the week before my appointment. It was several years before I made the connection and realized I was acting that way out of fear of what the test results would be. I remember the day I was told I had cancer like it was this morning. I remember laying in my day bed thinking to my self "I have cancer...I have cancer...I have cancer." Anyways, the thought of hearing those words "You have cancer" or "The cancer is back" terrified me and frankly it still scares me a little. However this past week I was fine. I have felt at peace which is wonderful.

I spent the rest of the day with mom. We went to dinner at Cheddars and then got snow cones at Bahama bucks. Then I headed home with a sack full of groceries from mom's pantry and fridge.

Tomorrow is going to be a wonderfully low key day and I can't wait. Praying everyone has a wonderful weekend.

God Bless,
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