I have encountered many "I didn't plan this" moments this week and I am proud to say that I stayed calm and positive throughout everyone of them. Well, almost all of them. When I was working on the large print bulletin it kept going crazy on me and I couldn't fix it. I did share some momentary tears, but quickly pulled myself together, took a deep breath, said a prayer and started over. Well, God came to my rescue, like He has always promised. My boss came out and saw the frustration in my eyes and face, I am sure, and told me to 86 the large print bulletin for this week. He said lets see if anyone complains or asks about not having it and then go from there. I said thank you and deleted the stinkin thing.

I started the newsletter today and so far it has been a successful project. I am NOT doing it in Wordperfect, rather in Publisher. I know Microsoft products and know the formatting in it. Wordperfect deals with codes and key strokes and all that crazy mess. You hit enter and the everything below it is all messed up. After yesterday the bulletin will be moved to publisher quicker than I had orginally planned. Wordperfect is just more stress than it is worth and it is completely unecessary when there is a program that will do just as well if not better!!!!

I haven't had a chance to read much of Karol Ladd's book, Thrive don't simply Survive, but am ready to have some free time so I can. I definitely feel like I am just surviving right now. I am so tired and barely have enough energy to make it through a day at work. When I get home it takes almost more energy than I have left to eat.

Just had an "aha" moment. A few weeks ago, the guy I was dating decided he just wanted to go back to being friends. I was upset for that day, but not so much about the relationship with him ending, but more about the fact that it was another step backwards in my love life. Well, God knew what He was doing, as He always does. I haven't had time to even think about dating someone in the last few weeks.

Could where my life is right now, career wise, be the reason that I am still single? It is a strong possibility. I mean, God knew this day would come where I was handling an office by myself and in charge of everything. God knew that I would take way too much on and not ask for help. God knew that I would feel the need to bring work home in order to get it all done, instead of asking for help. God knew all of this and it has all come at a time when I am single and don't have many other obligations. I am free to take this on and make it my own. Hmmmmm It's interesting what you figure out when you sit still and just be with God and when you listen to that little voice in your head. Yes it also could be that the man He created for me isn't quit ready for me. Only God knows and I am going to worship and praise Him while I wait.