Well I am not sure what has happened to me in the past few days, but I am definitely a different woman than I was when I woke up on Tuesday morning. I feel it has to do with the bible study I am doing. It has made me so aware of my thoughts, words and actions and that God is my immediate audience to what I am thinking, saying and doing and I realized what he was witnessing was not something that he would be proud of. Yes I have a generous and giving heart, sometimes too generous, and am always there for my family and friends whenever they need me, no questions asked, but I have been horrible to myself. That is not what God wants of His children.
Last night I spent a while in prayer, some of it in tears. I prayed for everything and everyone that entered my mind. I was just talking to God like He was sitting right in front of me and asking how I was, how my day went, how my family and friends were. That has never happened to me before. I mean I have always prayed and loved God, but this was so different. I feel like last night I truly gave my wholeself over to God. I always thought I had done that before, but if I had done that I would have been happy all this time and been truly at peace. Now I am happy, I am at peace, I am falling in Love with my God and it is so exciting. I look forward to talking to Him, to learning more about him, to spend time in music worship with Him (just the two of us). I got home tonight about 12:15 from some much needed girl time, just hanging out and vegging and visiting!!! I am so sleepy, but I couldn't wait to get home and sing to/with my God. Sing His praises, His truths!!!!
Some really exciting things happened today. First I was obedient and paid all my bills. I went on to pay a student loan payment and because I had applied for a new repayment schedule (to lower my payments) it also postponed the payment for a month. Therefore I don't have one due on July 3. I was so excited because that freed up money to use to pay-off my medical bills. (all are mainly lab work from my oncology check-up). The total of my medical bills was not much over the cost of the student loan payment. God is so great!!!!
Also, my niece Ashley and I discussed getting an apartment together yesterday (Thursday) and today she called and said she found a house. Its in her price range, I would pay her rent and we would both be saving money. This is perfect because I am not ready for the responsibility that comes with owning a house. Nothing has been worked out, but it is a strong possibility that this will happen and it would be a huge answer to prayers. It would mean that I could keep my job and get some other stuff paid off!!!!
My sister had a hair appt yesterday, so I had the priviledge of keeping Connor and Dawna at work with me. My spirit is always lifted when I get to see my sweet babies.
All the girls got together tonight, it has been so long since all of us got together for some girl time!!! I miss hanging out with them so much, but we are all so busy that it is hard to get us all together on the same night!!!
Today has been a great day and now I am going to go to sleep and take advantage of the fact that I get to sleep in tomorrow!!!! Woo Hoo!!!
Goodnight and God Bless,
Feather Lynn
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